These questions are getting tougher by the ‘day’. I’m not even a quarter of the way through and I’ve hit a tough one:
6. Something you’re proud of in the past few days
I’ve been considering lots of different things in my head and I keep coming back to feeling proud because “H did x” or “H said y”. But they aren’t things I’ve done that I’m proud of, which is what I think the question really means. But sitting down now to write this post, I’ve realised what I’m really proud of sitting here on the sofa, right here, right now. I’m proud of getting through this week!
I have always been a bit of a neat-freak. As a teenager I would clean my room every weekend. At University, the cleaner in my halls of residence wouldn’t just come in and clean; No she would come in and ask if what bits were left for her to finish. As I’ve got older and acquired more space to clean, my standards have lowered slightly. But we tidy our house at the end of everyday to keep it neat: putting away toys, washing-up, hoovering-up crumbs. So you can imagine my absolute horror when one night last week, as I settled down for my bedtime read, Sam said “Do you think we need to consider getting a cleaner?”
I’ve been back at work for two months now (has it really only been that long?!) and it has been a real rollercoaster of emotions. Normal post-Maternity Leave anxieties aside, I had always been looking forward to going back to work; But I also knew it wouldn’t be easy. I haven’t yet regretted my decision to go back. I am enjoying seeing my work colleagues again and using my brain more. H also really, really enjoys nursery so I am fortunate to rarely suffer from mummy-guilt.
I am suffering from a quite severe and long-running affliction. “What is it?” I hear you wonder. Well I shall tell you…it’s guilt. Yes, guilt. And it’s just a little feeling of unease or regret that I suffer from; It’s the kind of guilt which eats away at me and makes me question my decisions throughout every day.
If I had my way, our house would always be neat, clean and dust free. All of the drawers and cupboards would be organised and wouldn’t have anything out-of-date, unused or broken in them. The below quotation from William Morris sums up my ideal ethos really well:
If you want a golden rule that will fit everything, this is it: Have nothing in your houses that you do not know to be useful or believe to be beautiful.
Unfortunately life is busy and over the years that dream has become harder and harder to achieve, especially since the new family addition earlier this year. I’ve had to revisit my approach to keeping on top of things in the last few months and have found a few changes have made quite a big difference.
I suspect I’m not alone in finding it tough so here are my tips in case they can help anyone else:
…put the washing away.
…tidy away the big pile of paperwork accumulating on the arm of the chair in the lounge.
So I have been making use of the Bank Holiday Monday. We started the day with a 13 mile bike ride. I then got on with muchos cleaning (including windows and frames!) and dusting. I also touched-up some paintwork and applied a second coat of stain to the most recent conservatory sanding. I updated my finance spreadsheet and did the ironing. I then make a Angela-style Melanzane Parmagiana (I added in slow roasted peppers and courgettes along with the aubergine) for dinner. The house is now wonderfully clean and tidy (Well, except for the bathroom and the kitchen floor… I’ll do those in the week.); Sam and I are both well fed!
I’m now officially zonked. I would kick back and enjoy a nice Bank Holiday film on the telly, but as I have previously mentioned, that doesn’t happen anymore. So, I’m going to just hope Sam picks something fun whilst I make a suppa and locate a tasty cake!
Yesterday was, despite my fears, beyond productive! I was most happy. I was also most achey when I went to bed. It will make for a very dull blog post, but here is a summary of my accomplishments 🙂
Of the things on my original plan I failed to do:
Although, the former can be done one night and the latter was not urgent because Sam had enough shirts!
So, after an okay day at work today and a good erg session tonight, a happy two days! Now, cake and Master Chef final part 2. Come on Tim!
My laze around in bed was clearly the trick to a productive day! I have cleaned our bedroom from top-to-toe and finished all remaining skirting board / door frame painting in there. Hurrah! It has been bugging me for a while. I also made Sam some rock cakes, made a crumble (to have in a bit) and cooked Sam a steak dinner (salmon for me). My finances are up-to-date and I re-potted my yukka which has been flopping around and looking a bit worse-for-wear for some time. Hopefully I have not left it too late. Oh, and I did all the ironing (except the napkins but they can wait). Now, shower, put clothes away, change the bed and finally chill time. I do feel happy after a productive day 🙂 Oh, and there was Dr Who watchage too. Hehe!
Yesterday I had to do my first 5k of 2010. I had been dreading it all week and went on a small emotion version of Nemesis before I actually just got the damn thing over with (thanks to some additional motivational texts from Lou). It was horrible! It’s amazing how you can block out the discomfort of that kind of thing. It also reminded me how important mental commitment is. I have not been ‘there’ since the New Year and as a result (not helped by a bit of tiredness and dodgey breathing because of the cold) I gained 33 seconds on my PB.
One happy result of finishing my 5k erg was I got to have a nice bath and start my day off! I had thought about going in to town, but instead I decided to clean the house. I have spent a large portion of the day cleaning and now the house is all sparkly! A clean house always makes me very happy. Now I think I will go and make some dinner 😀